Princess3shuxian’s Weblog

been thinking of wat to blog this few weeks..

I must say, i am lazy.. haha.. well jus a simple update of my current life

Sch started for 2 weeks, and i already lost my temper at somebody hack care attitude..

Erm, i jus came back from sydney from visiting my sis

Erm, busy with nothing, but still busy..haha..

trying to get in touch with nellie for CCA… erm.. that is a surmise of my life..

moving on will be a detail description of my trip to sydney.. (although i still believe instead of reading of ppl trip, go on the trip will be better)..

Anyway here is my trip  description..

on 20th april departed on my 4 days 3 night trip to Sydney Australia..

Check into SIngapore international airport terminal 3  at 6.00 pm.. erm, airport was new, as usual took me onli 5 min to collect my tics.. veri efficent..love such efficency..later on went for light dinner at the airport cafe with mum and dad, before i went into the gates.. after custom clearance.. my biggest disappointment came along.. the airport interior was not as fabulous as i think it shld be.. not exactly a shopping paradise like they have claim.. felt a bit decieve.. haha.. but as a crazy shopper i still manage to get my hands on 200g of chocolate before heading to the boarding gates..

well, took SQ221, a A380 aircraft, was new and i must say comfortable as well as spacious..during boarding, i was observing this pair of siblings.. erm young kids travelling without parent, age 12 or so.. erm guess wat?? they are flying SQ first class.. each tic cost more than 10k.. well it just sets me thinking, when will i ever going to get a chance to fly first class.. grr..haha..well.. kids are so fortunate.. anyway back to the trip.. on the 7 hr flights spend time watching movie, listen song, try the flight version of tretis, but i gave up in the end, all i can say is my left and right brain are not well coordinated..

well touch down in sydney airport arnd 6 plus.. so i hurried to the toilet as usual, then i saw something that u never will get to see in singapore that is box to put the syringe that is being used., so was wondering are there really so many diabetic ppl in aus..haha..well.. anyway.. after coming out from the ladies, i went to clear immigration.. and here is the big thing.. DISCRIMINATION… ahh.. all because i am malaysian and a chinese.. grr…the stupid immigration lady, by the name of Ross(will never forget her name) took my passport and started to question me all kinds of funny questions..

Ross: have u been in aus?

Me: yes, a few yrs back, to brisbane, gold coast with my parents for hols

Ross: U were working back then??

Me: erm, i was onli 12 yrs old, and onli there a week, how can i work..

Ross(disbelieve): so u are a malaysian.

Me: yes

Ross: where do u stay in?

ME: singapore

Ross: why?

Me: because my parents are malaysian by birth hence i have to follow my parents citizenship, but i was born and educated in singapore..

Ross: so wat are u doing in aus.

Me: visiting my sis, studying in canberra, ANU..

Ross: so where are u schooling, college

Me: Ngee Ann polytechnic

Ross: Course,?

Me: psychology..

Ross: u can go..

See wat an ass she is.. luckily i am educated, if not sure kanna bully lor..sigh.. never thought discrimination in aus is such a big deal, till i experience it myself..

Anyway, i hang out at airport till 1030, when ying finally arrived in sydney.. somehow the experience of meeting her again, was so familiar.. nothing else matter when we see each other..haha

after that we took a train from airport to the central station, walk to the hostel where i reside for 4 days.. YHA HOSTEL.. excellecnt location and place, although it was hostel but it was super clean.. yes..

after checking in, went to paddy market in Sydney chinatown to eat lunch and went arnd shoppin..after which we brought tic for sydney explorer bus.. and started sight seeing sydney from the top deck of the bus.. haha.. ok.., let me stop here.. too lazy.. will continued tmr..

sigh.. felt veri guilty after a conversation with huang jie…

hmm, realise tat been a long time since i went back to foutang..

the once veri closed to heart feeling became a bit distant yet so familiar.. i always describe foutang as my spiritual home.. although serious but yet laughter was never so far off.. it never fail to make me at ease.. the comfort is really nothing comparable.. lively yet serious..

since at it.. decide to do some recollection..hmm the first time i got to know foutang and the formidable people was somewhere in 2004.. it was till today a veri big ? on why do i feel so at ease instantly, dunno if it is the people or the song, suddenly i feel so at home.. it jus feel like a friend that i seem to know super well, although we were only stranger.. from then i began my journey.. it was 4 years since then. every year was a remarkable, enriching, self discovering and self fulfilling.. the sat lessons always make me gain a new insight, far better than those self dicovering workshop..haha.. well somehow.. slowly i drift.. perhaps the colorful world outside as many describe is more entertaining, but yet never have i drift so far off.. guess the biggest hurdle came when i enter poly.. hmm, life began to change..fast and drastic changes.. perhaps having the mindset to do well, i began to drift like a boat.. further and further away off shore… the mindset of wanting to do well, came with committement, and exhaustion.. i remember someone (can’t remember who exactly) told me this, such committement is wat u choose, hence u can’t really complain u are busy” till now this words jus keep flashing in me.. in the past year, haven seniors been educating us on, is impt to seperate religious committement with normal committement.. been doing well in secondary sch, weighing the importance, but yet when poly started, my scales began to upset.. dun really noe which is which or perhaps the exhaustion from year one is totally killing me.. now i really at a lost.. though i still go to religious class once a month.. 

but yet again, i am lost.. went back again, but realise the feeling is so different.. a bit distant that scares me off sometimes, it jus give me the feeling of fish out of water.. although seniors are always dere with encouragement, but i feel so out of place.. never have i ever feel so distant.. it jus puts me on guts.. the feeling is unbearable at times that i feel like giving up.. but yet something in me jus kept saying hold on..it always never fail to leave me in a pool of confusion.. identifyin who is who., the dilema of whether to continued on my journey struck me now..left me standing in square 1.. shld i or shld i not.. guess the short conversation with huang jie does set me in thinking cap.. 

continuing will be painful but yet should i brave my courage and venture ahead or do i stay here… i realli dunno.. i’m like a boat in a ocean wondering where is the shore..

Shuxian: confuse and gulity..  

i’m bored.. ok real bored..

sigh..

hmm today , was suppose to go malaysia with mum, but ended up, i decided.. i am abandoing the trip.. decide to go crazy for a while, lets go out with friends..

Met up with Jess , meimei, von, and ting.. went vivo ate fondue from mache..i can’t say no to chocolate i guess.. didn’t buy much things with the girls but after the girls left, i went to shop for a little while be4 headin home, and within that little while, i bought my needs..

1. lip gloss and eye palette,
2. make up brushes
3. make up remover
4. cleanser..

thats not all, drank bubble tea at plaza, and went home..

well today my house is fill with ppl, my uncle’s daughter came to stay, as she is looking for a job in singapore, and my mum friend is also over.. so my house is flooded with ppl..well guess wat.. i am flying in 6 day time…i can’t wait..

and my biggest joy of the day is i recieve an email from miss lim, social psych lecturer.. been sometime since i last heard from her..great to hear that she is now doing somethin in  her niche field..congrats.. and she reminded me how fast time fly.. well do hope to hear from her again.. yups… that about it..

too lazy to continue..