Princess3shuxian’s Weblog

hee.. glen o phobia is first discovered by shuxian OF PCS 2A01

Symptoms are similar to Sress like symptons..

haha

i am crapping,  but found tat i am suffering from fear of Mr glen… haha.. reason why..haha i dunno..heee

Ying Ying 3 week home trip ended today.. Went to send her off at the airport and i jus refused to cry.. but now crying like a baby at home.. Realli miss her.. Sometimes i feel the world is so big..and shuxian is jus selfish..

She dun like to bear a part with things closed to her.. by letting things go seems to be cutting her flesh.. pain.. upset..

I miss you, jie jie.. counting down to the day when we will see each other again..5 mth 6 mth.. seems so long.. how am i going get through my life without u..u always let me depend on u.. for always u never let me down, by not letting me depend on u.. now i jus can’t get rid of the habit of  being dependent on u…

Feel so bad for not spending time with u tis 3 weeks.. Arg.. thanks for always protecting and standing up for my rights.. although i noe a lot of time wat u can give me is limited. but the hug and the time when u allowed me to creep and sleep next to u is enough to make me feel loved.. I reali miss u.. thank for being such a great sister..

Now looking at ur empty yet neatly pack desk and then bed.. make me miss u  dearly.. how.. 5/6 mths. how am i going to get passed this day.. I jus keep crying.. jIe jie i miss u..

CRY..

Darn it pissed overworked.. Feel Like scolding u all.. but how can i complain..

WHY DUN U ALL STAND ON MY STAND AND THINK OF ME..

SELFISH WE ALL ARE.. BUT I FEEL EXTREMME TIRED. WORKING WITH ALL OF U, JUS MAKE ME IRRITATED.. CRAP..

U all dun even bothered.. all u care is to save ur self.. can u all think of me..

To u esp.. i really hate u.. i dun like the attitude u have, how can u promised me something and didn’t do it.. am i jus easy to bullied.. Pissed.. angry.. upset.. unjustified…

All i can do is jus keep crying..Can u all jus put in extra effort.. GRP Dynamics, Workic, speech com.. why am i putting so much effort.. shld have let all of u die.. doesn’t matter rite.. after all i already screwed my GPA..

Why am i doing so much more then wat i shld do.. shld i be given a break.. or am i going to break.. i hate it when u are so unconcerned.. IS the Score going to be mine alone.. When i tell u all grp dynamics is not done, none of u ever care to ask how much more and if i need help.. wat kind of project tis is.. fed up.. u all make me feel like i am an idiot..

CAN ANYONE SHOWED ME MORE CONCERN.. shld u think u are not guilty of bullying me for members of the speech com, grp, and workic grp, pls do some reflection.. u all really need it…

I can forgive ppl who give me extra work as long as i feel appreciated.. all of u are treating me like horse.. i dun owe u all a living.. instead u all owe me an explaination as well as apology.. dun think tat u are different or less culturally accepted or society accepted and shld be given more priority/ or tat u can contribute less..the mere fact that u have a brain, and can be a pcs student, does not give u a reason to not work hard.. U ppl are jus bullying me.. I jus keep quiet cause i hope u all will change, but i realise,  not to true..

I HATE ALL OF U.. U ARE JUS IDIOTS, PATHETIC,SELF PITY, AND SELF CENTRED FOOLS
DAMN ALL OF U

Been crying a lot this few days.. when nobody is watching.. it pains me to see a young cute bright courteous boy to jus die.. 12 years of the parent bringing him up.. all went down the drain in less than a min. down 16 story.. i dunno.. shaken.. rather unbelieveable..till tis veri moment i jus can’t accept it…

wWell a  week pass like a wind.. fast and swift.. so many things happen on this week.. too many sad and miserable stuff.. feel like having pin poking u.. grr..

erm.. well been having headache??or shld i say Head heat? feel like my head is burning..guess it is saying.. stop wat u are doing.. drop ur knife..haha.. alrites.. since tmr is sat, after meeting i shall come home and rest.. afterall e learning.. i deserve to rest.. do i..

things to accomplish..??

Meetin
B and B etest,
B and B stuff..
Study for Jap.. die die..
Finish reuben assignment